Confess what's true
A lot of things have happened this week. For starters, I finally confessed to my crush. I still got rejected though and it's been really hard to move on. I can't even be in the same room without hearing nothing but deafening silence. Then I have to deal with my respectfully homophobic friend asking about what's wrong when I can't say what's wrong without feeling like I'm going to be silently judged. Today he came up to me and said "Why are you sitting with these people? Are we not good enough for you?" so I said "I just felt like sitting with them today". Then, he said to me "Don't think that I'm trying to gaslight you." when he'd just asked me if I sat with them because I thought they weren't good enough for me. I don't know why but I feel like I was being silently judged by him because when my crush left, I told him everything about how I confessed last week and that things have been awkward ever since that day. He listened to me and said "So what exactly are you?" to which I said I said "I'm bisexual". That's when he said "Darla's (Fake Name) like that as well." and I felt alienated because it sounded to me like he kept trying to judge me even though he didn't show it at all. Anyways, that's all for today's blog. Bye Bye!
Mercedes Powers :)