Ｂｒａｉｎｄｕｍｐ ＃８

I don't envy those who know me, nor those who have.
It must hurt to watch someone lose themselves so badly that there's nothing left to love.
I don't hate you for leaving.
It must have been unpleasant, that, I understand.
To watch someone usually so full of spirit and bite lose their humanity. Embrace passivity until he can no longer care enough to decide simple matters.
What to eat. Don't ask him.
For he hungers for nothing anymore.
Where to stay. Don't bother.
For he will sleep 'neath a streetlamp post.

I dont envy those who watched me lose myself as I lost the will to be. To decide. To love.
Embrace passivity.

I don't hate you for leaving.
I don't hate at all anymore, anyone but myself.
But god how I wish you stayed-